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Write out a list of things you want to do before you die. Then put it up somewhere you can see it everyday. remind yourself of what you want, then make it happen. If you want to get a degree, take the steps and make it happen. If you want to have a baby, lay out a plan in your head, tlak to him, see what he thinks and make it work. Anything is possible. The list helped me out. good luck
Take a relaxing bath with candles around you and meditate on something beautiful. When you get out you should be feeling better. Then grab a crochet hook and some yarn..kick your feet up and have fun... I would suggest telling him that you really need him. If he doesn't respond to that consider leaving him. If you don't want to leave him, then if he will be gone for a while go back to school and get an education for something you would like.
You sound lonely and depressed. Find someone to talk with. Set some short term goals for yourself. Talk to your man and set out a plan together. Do some volunteer work- it will make you feel more useful.
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